Win Moua v.15 The Hottie Kim Dong Wan

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Win<3 Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Finals are coming up and i'm freakin tired! I'm going to Laos and Thailand in a week, I'm so excited!

Win<3 Tuesday, December 12, 2006

I know it's been forever but there's so muc I have to do. I don't know where this life is taking me because I seem to have lost control of everything. I don't know what is happening and am very much confused. I just want to be happy...can't I have that? I just want to be happy...

Win<3 Saturday, November 18, 2006

I know it has been forever since I last blogged and I'm sorry for not putting the site on hitas. It's just I have so much going on in my life right now. The world is hitting me hard with the lost of my father, his one year anniversary, college, my mom, and fiding myself. I don't know what's going on but I feel as if I'm in a movie without the prince and the happy ending. I'm so exhuasted, I need a freakin break. Another thing, why do I always fall for guys who have girlfriends? I've known him since sophomore year in high school but we lost contact ever since he moved to cali a couple years ago. Life is to hectic, to sad, to painful, to disappointing but I want to live my life to the fllest and appreciate everything I have expecially my mom.

Win<3 Thursday, September 28, 2006

I've lost hope for everything so I don't give a shit about "just have faith". I've become practical and just pissed off; I'll play the game life has to offer.

I think I like this guy but I don't know what's going to happen. Like I said I don't have hope so I don't really give a fuck.

Win<3 Friday, May 26, 2006

Let's jus say, life is so fucken unfair. I miss my dad so much. I don't understand why he was taken away from us so suddenly. Don't tell me it happened for a fucken reason! Don't tell me there's a purpose to all of this! What good enough reason and purpose is there? What makes everyone so much better then me that I have to reach this so called purpose first? Don't tell me not to cry. I'm fucken cring because he's not coming back. I cry because he's my father and you don't because he's not your father. You don't know the pain so don't tell me to stop crying. Don't tell me you'll take me away if I can't control myself. You don't know, you don't understand the pain I'm going through.

Win<3 Wednesday, November 30, 2005

This is my second week here at Gustavus and everything is going well. I expect a lot from Gustavus so I don't think I'll have much time to blog, maybe once in two weeks. I miss my mom a lot. Well, I might play vampire tonight with the upper classmen. On the side note, I'm falling in like with the damn guy all over again, God Bless me.

Win<3 Monday, September 12, 2005

There has been a lot of drama this summer. Let me start off with I ONLY HAVE 4 DAYS before I leave to Gustavus & I'm not even done with my shopping. I still have to get a small fan, a fridge, a desk lamp and some other stuff I can't remember. I've also been working my butt off, 40 freakin' hours a week for the past month at Abercrombie. I’m only supposed to be working part time but my managers were cool about me staying those extra long hours. I haven't had much time to do anything else not even enjoying the beautiful weather Minnesota's been having. This summer has yet to be the sunniest summer in years. I'm kind of bummed out because I was hoping I could spend this summer just relaxing and having fun before I hit off for college. Oh well, I'm really excited for college even though it's quite nerve racking. I'm going to be sad, homesick and lonely for the first couple weeks but I'll get through. My motive is to play hard, study hard.

One thing that really hit me this summer is trust and how deep you should trust a certain person depending on their status in your life. I've trusted certain people in my life because of how they presented themselves or the fact that they are my damn relatives. It just never really occurred to me that even the most important people in your life can let go of that trust and turn their backs against you until now. It doesn't matter how related you are, how deep your friendship is, & how long you've known eachother because in the end people change. It pisses me off because people bring/make up the stupidest excuses to be mad at you and then use it against you in your everyday choices. I’ll say it out now; I don’t care. I don’t FUCKEN like that boy. GET it over with your FUCKEN heads and move on. I’m not going to Gustavus because of him. I’m going there to do what I need to do like getting my damn degree. Why the heck do you guys care so much now? It never really was an issue before so why does it matter now? Why the heck do you guys talk so much crap and prance around like you guys are the innocent ones. WTF??? Anyhow, I don’t even care anymore. At a point in my life I was afraid to trust guys but now I don’t trust anyone regardless of who they are (well besides my family). If my cousin and friends can hurt me then anyone can. About my family, I think it’s different because even though they hurt you and let you don’t sometimes, you can always count on them. In the end they’re always going to be there with you and love you no matter the cause.

Win<3 Monday, August 29, 2005

OMG, I’m turning 18 in four days; I’m so excited! Lately I’ve been having these crazy shopping urges so I might just spend my 18th birthday shopping like crazy. I’m really trying to save money for college and all but I need to reward myself just for my 18th birthday. Who knows, I might end up ditching the mall and hitting the casino but I highly doubt it. I’m trying to improve my relationship with God. Finally, I received my housing information. I’m so freakin’ late compared to my friends and coworkers. I’m so pissed off because I’m on the 5th floor. It’s kind of my fault though because I turned in my housing contract one week late. Anyhow, my roommate lives 15 minutes away so that’s pretty cool. I’m looking forward to meeting her; I hope she’s cool. I wouldn’t want a sloppy person as my roommate and trust me I’ve heard stories. People can lie about themselves on their information sheet then get hooked up with a total opposite. I guess it’s a risk that I have to take. My grandparents are coming to visit from Laos. I’m excited to see them because I’ve never met them personally, only through pictures and video recordings. My dad hasn’t seen them for over 15 years so he’s really excited. Maybe this will change things around the house; I hope it does.

Win<3 Wednesday, July 27, 2005

I made a quick layout featuring Kim Dong Wan. I know it's crappy but it's better to have a change. I've been so busy these days I haven't found the time to blog either. On a side note, I'm a graduate now! YEAH BABY! I'm really heading to Gustavus. My excitement is building up because I'm getting out of this freakin' place. Anywho, I'm praying for something. :P

Win<3 Wednesday, June 8, 2005

Tomorrow is the last day of school for seniors and I'm freakin' excited and depressed. I can't believe this whole year is already almost over. Graduation is on Monday so I'm excited for that. I don't feel any different just the fact that I'm never going to come back to this place again. Well on a side note, it's been one month and a week since Ryan and I have been together. Everything is going well and I'm looking forward to spending the summer with him. weeeeee! Well, this will be all for now because I've been so busy. Later!

Win<3 Thursday, June 2, 2005

So much has happened within the past month. Ryan and I got to know eachother, he asked me to prom and just last week he asked me out. I Don't know how to think because it's been so long since I've been in a relationship. I can't belive I'm really dating again, LOL. It felt weird during the first couple days saying my boyfriend. I'll see how things go, wish me luck.

Win<3 Monday, May 9, 2005

Ryan asked for my phone number yesterday, hehe, it was so cool. I know, I'm such a dork but it's about time he asked. I want him to ask me to prom but I don't know how to imply it and I'm not planning to ask him. It's tradition for the guy to ask the girl, hehee. Well, I guess I've decided to attend Gustavus Adolphus College. I'm able to afford this $30,000 over 28,000 because of stupid package reasons. I guess Gustavus has more scholarships and grants to give out. Well, my last quarter is really relaxing. I have senior release 1st and 2nd period. Then I have anatomy for third our and teacher's aid for fourth hour. I'm trying to make the best out of my senior year.

Win<3 Wednesday, April 20, 2005

I received my package from Gustavus and St. Scholastica. Though I really wanted to attend St. Scholastica, I've made my decision to attend Gustavus due to financial reasons. With Gustavus, I'll only be taking up to 4,000 dollars in loans a year verses St. Scholastica,10,000 dollars a year. That's about a 25,000 dollars difference after 4 years. Both colleges are already expensive, around 30,000 dollars a year so if Gustavus is willing to help me more then that's where I'm going regardless. My heart was really set with Scholastica. I paid for the deposits, turned in my housing contract and registered for orientation in July. I'm disappointed but it's okay, heheheh. I avoided Gustavus because Song oppa goes there. I don't want people to think I'm going because of him. It's nothing like that, I'm choosing the school that I can afford. I shouldn't care what people think, it's my future I'm dealing with.
Badminton season is going great. I had my second match of this season today. I'm not really satisfied because I played horribly but I still won. I can't settle with my mistakes, I have to fix them. On my next game I won't start off slow and lazy; I have to be aggressive. Well, I have finals tomorrow so I'm studying like heck. Third quarter ends this week then SPRING BREAK! I'm not really excited but then I'll get a chance to go prom shopping. I think I'm getting infected with sernioritas. I'm so freakin lazy, gosh! I'll be taking senior release next quarter. I'm excited because I won't have to wake up early anymore. I really can't believe it, time is flying by so quickly. I have to finnish my scholarships too. Darn!

Win<3 Tuesday, March 29, 2005

I received my FAFSA packages for Morris and UMD and I'm satisfied with it. I'm still waiting for Gustavus and St. Scholastica to make my final decision. I'm ranked 12 out of 331 seniors as of now. I've got to work hard this quarter to reach top ten because this is the deciding quarter to who will be wearing the golden stools. OMG, I'm dissecting a cat in anatomy and physiology right now, ^__^. I've skinned the cat so the smell is pretty much gone. I'm learning the muscles, how awesome, so I get to separate the tissues today. I think I want to be a doctor instead of a nurse now, hehhe. But, omg, I can't believe senior year is almost over *shocked*

OMG, badminton started and I'm so freaking excited. I've been practicing super hard, doing drops, clears, smashes and drives. I think I'm going to play Varsity #1 on Monday against Edison so everyone wish me the best of luck! This year, I'm aiming for State because it's my last year *cries*

okay, so you guys remember Song Oppa from my other entries right? Well, I told my cousin 3 months ago that I wanted to ask him to prom and she told him regardless of how I felt. With my luck she told me not to ask him because he was seeing someone so I gave up.
Thinking about that, I wanted to know the answer for myself. I was planning to ask him but this time without telling anyone. I was so sure of it but one night while my cousin and I were chatting she announced that in the summer he liked her, etc. I didn't know how to react so I just said okay. I'm confused and I don't even know if these thing are true but it's not worth figuring out.

okay, so a week ago I had this problem:
Another problem, there's this white guy at my school who sits at my lunch table with my friends and. I thought about asking him to prom if I didn't get to go with Song oppa. Well, the boy(Ryan), we've never talked but there's been a lot of eye contact. I was scared he wouldn't be interested in dating an Asian girl so I never attempted to introduce myself to him. Just the other day, I saw him with this Asian girl.....I don't know what's going on but I think they're dating. Now I've lost all hope........... Prom is coming up and I haven't even looked around for a dress...darn

Two days ago, this happened:

I came out of the varsity lockers after badminton practice and I saw Ryan waiting for his ride (he's in track). We were waiting for 10 minutes; during the whole time, questions of talking to him drowned my brain. So, I finally gave in and said, WTF ! It's my senior year, let me make use of it. So I went up to him and said, " Hey, don't you used to sit at my table, etc." Well, we talked for a while and he left. After that we started saying hi in the hallways and today, after practice, he approached me. We chatted for 45 minutes while waiting for our rides, LOL. We talked about prom, our favorite food, along with track and badminton. He was teasing me, saying my parents forgot to pick me up, LOL. I'm glad I talked to him the other day because now we're friends. It's better to be friends then not know eachother at all. I think that one chick, was just someone who liked him. There's a point when we have to overcome our fears to get the reward. I've decided to take my chances whenever I get a hold of it. I'm hoping this would be a great start of a new friendship!

Win<3 Thursday, March 17, 2005

New layout, WOO HOO! I've finally found the time to make a new layout due to my newest obsession, a korean drama, I'm Sorry I Love you. This is by far the best drama I've seen next to stairway to heaven. I loved Full House but it can't beat I'm sorry I love you. I don't usually cry in movies but this drama captured my heart and soul. The cast did awesome acting; I felt everything, I'm still feeling the pain of Moo Hyuk's death. Just listening to the ost causes an ache in my heart. I 'm about to cry, YES, it's that GOOD! I recomend everyone to watch it! *still crying*

Win<3 Sunday, March 6, 2005